Today I learned that I am a good person. It sounds really funny, but I have had trouble realizing if I really was or not for some time. I don't want to be the cause of somebody's problems. I was thinking that I was in the past, but now I don't think that I am the cause now. I just need to be myself and not pretend to be someone else. I also think that everyone involved needs some time to recover.

On the subject of impatience, my dad is starting to bother me. I have a feeling that he wants me out of the house. He says that I am a good kid, but then goes "sleuthing" to find some bad shit about me. Trouble is dad, there is no bad shit on me. And don't go trying to plant some either because I am smarter than that. Why does he worry so much about me? I want to live my own life and he shouldn't fucking judge me for my choices. Therefore, I must not regret the choices that I'll make this year. This year coming up is going to be huge because I will have to make a lot of choices that I will live with for the rest of my life. They are choices that I must make by myself, for myself. Sorry dad, you aren't me so start worrying about yourself. And by the way, I like living at home. I'm not rebellious like you were.

I must make an oath not to be discouraged when someone dosen't seem to care when I know that they probably do. All I want to say to that is I care about them but that dosen't mean they have to care about me. I will live.