As I was reading through my previous diary entries, I realized that on the most part as of late, that some of these entries are extremely depressing. I really don't know why either. I recall saying that I didn't plan on using this as a source for my problems because it wouldn't get me anywhere except for feeling worse. I wanted this to be a source of my creativity. Looks like the power of this diaryland thing is starting to take form. I guess it was making me feel like a fish on a hook, so to speak. But I'm getting past this now.

Another thing I still don't understand though: Where has my spanish speaking on this gone? Its been awhile since I've written any spanish in here except for the occasional "buenos noches" (lol). Oh well, maybe I should stop worrying about what I do. It only causes more pain to think about something over and over and over and over again. Especailly, when there is nothing you can do about it. You can't change the past. I guess I can erase some of these diary entries, but what good would it do? I would still remember what I said. And its hard to erase something that I have thought about constantly for a long time. But I shouldn't blame myself for having a good memory.

I guess its time to go to Espanol. Two more days until the final. I suppose I should start studying for real tonight.

Buenos dias I guess. Better yet, good day.