Today I got back into my bad mood and it showed with my reluctance to walk the dog when my mom begged me to. She thought I was being passive agressive and again suggested that I get my own apartment this summer. Now I'm actually thinking about it. It's not that I don't like my parents or anything, but maybe my mom is right. Maybe it's time to prove to myself that I can live on my own and do things for myself. It would give me a huge confidence boost too.

Still, I am worried about it and I think it might still be better being at home because my sister and brother will probably be away at camps again so I won't have to worry about my brother. Plus I'll have a job this time so I won't have to be here all the time. Finally, I really want to live in Templin again next year, so I think getting an aprartment for a short period of time is not only foolish from the money issue, but also because the summer isn't a whole amount of time to prove to my parents that I can live on my own, which is the major reason for doing this in the first place.

I don't know what to do. I need more time.