2002-08-07 @ 12:13 am One short explanation about why I wrote that paragraph concerning you and Lee in my last entry: I didn't want to weird you out about anything. Reading the following paragraph you wrote was like a red flag, saying I must try to explain myself, somehow: 'Okay, so have you ever talked to someone online that talks to someone else you talk to online? It's a bit strange. I don't really want to elaborate on it too much, but it's just weird. It's like, I don't know...maybe they will "talk" about me behind my back or something. And though I don't know either of these two guys too well, I don't think that they would do that. Still, I wonder if I am setting myself up. I mean, there was something that struck me immediately when this was all brought to my attention, but I think it's okay...ech. And now I feel like an insecure nerd. That's all good, though, because I kickass.' Honestly, this entire paragraph made me feel dirty in a way, leading to question my judgment on talking with you in the first place. Like you, I don't mind talking with people (especially when I'm killing time at work), but this time I just felt guilty for talking with Lee's online friend for some dumb reason...like it was out of my place to do so. Why? Your answer is probably as good as mine. But if you knew me, you would know I like to keep a clear conscience. I don't talk behind people's backs for that reason too. If I made you feel weird about anything, then I too would worry about it. So anyway, as you can see from Lee's latest entry, he's OK with everything and as long as you're not confused anymore, I don't think there is anything left to worry about. At least we made you swear!
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