Who am I and what am I doing?

2003-03-03 @ 3:33 p.m.

I realized that I haven’t been giving this diary much justice lately. So that's why I’m going to write a little update about what’s going on in my life and maybe give out some interesting information that could be useful for me when I look back at this monstrosity of a web-diary. Before I begin, I’d just like to say fuck you to diaryland...when am I going to be able to change my damn layout? Damn you. OK, enough with that...time for a MEGA update: 1. I’m still in college...a junior at Kansas University. It’s a freaking miracle that I’m still here. 2. I’m living this semester at Pearson Hall. It’s very nice and I get along with everyone here. I think it would be illegal if I didn’t get along with someone. Everyone’s too nice...but that's the way I am, so it works out. 3. I’m doing very well in my classes right now (also a freaking miracle). I’ve gotten A’s on all of my tests so far and I’m really pretty proud of that. I don’t think I’ve ever been this good in school before. 4. I’m trying to get back into shape...so I’m swimming! I miss competitive swimming a lot. I was really good back in high school (4th in the 200 free, 4th in 500 free, 1st team all state). And now I suck...well not really, but to my standards I really am a horrible swimmer now. It’s just a matter of improving each time I get in the water though and I can already see improvement. 5. Marching band has been my main activity here at KU. I can’t believe that I’ve played the 4th bass drum for 3 years already!! But just like last year, I’m debating on whether I should do it again next year. Last summer I was 100% sure that I wasn’t going to do it, but the week band camp started my drumline director called me and said that they wanted me back. So I did it and I’m so glad I did. I met more new people that I spend a lot of time with now on the weekends. It’s going to be a tough decision again and it’s going to be harder to come back I think because both the drumline director and band director won’t be back next year. It’ll be different and difficult and unfortunately, I don’t think I’ll have time for that. But we’ll see...I’m not saying no yet. 6. I’ve quit drinking excessively. 7, Madeleine is in Spain now for her 10 day spring break. She had a good time in Italy, but says she likes Spain a lot. You could read her blog about her trip...if I was able to fix the link on my diary!!!! Damn you diaryland!! Anyway...here’s the link 8. Madeleine reminded me that we’re going on our 17th month together. I’m still wondering if these months that she’s in Europe should count... 9. I’m planning out my summer already. I called my uncle’s law office today and talked with the guy that I worked with. He said that they didn’t have any job openings where he’s at, but knew of ‘even better’ job opportunities there. He transferred me over to this woman who wasn’t there, so Ieft a message. If I don’t get a call back today, I’ll call tomorrow. 10. I’m going to the Bonnaroo music festival in Tennessee this summer. I’m already excited about this event. I’m going with my brother and sister. Last night I was talking with my dad and he said that I had to look after them. Um ok Dad. My sister is going on 20 and my brother is going to be 18 by the time we go. And I’m 21 just for the record...but of course my dad thinks I’m around 30. 11. I’m also planning on going to a lot of concerts with my brother coming up. We went to this Bob Marley music festival last thursday and that was pretty cool. We’re going to Steve Kimock on March 24, Dave Chappelle on March 30 (OK, yes, a comedy show, but it’ll be so cool), possibly Pearl Jam in St. Louis (but that’s doubtful), but we’re definitely going to see widespread panic on May 6 and 7th...it’ll be incredible. And to think that about a month later we’ll get to see them plus 59 other bands/groups in Bonnaroo! Hell yeah. 12. I feel guilty. Spring break is less than two weeks away now and I miss Madeleine. Airline tickets to Paris are $400, which is pretty good. And I’m spending my money on going to concerts and stuff. But I still think $400 is a lot of money and could be spent on other things. Madeleine told me this too, but you could tell that if I somehow went to Paris that it would be great for her. And I think it would be great too, but it’s not going to happen. I can’t have everything. Hopefully I’ll get to spend a lot of time with her this summer and if not, at least I’ll see her sometime this summer. It’s just a matter of where and when. But that's still a ways away so I probably shouldn’t think about that right now. 13. I miss Madeleine a lot, but I’m OK. It’s not a bad feeling at all. I’m almost used to it now. But still, I miss her. 14. Well, I don’t know what else to say, so I’ll leave it here. I could go on and on, but it would get boring. 15. But before I go...I am this is the grunge band:

I am Pearl Jam

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